A five year crush??

Hey bloggers, it's been a while since I've posted something, but don't worry, I'm still reading.

Anyhoo..I've had a crazy hectic week, and I wanted to post about this certain situation that happened to me last Saturday, but I didn't find the time, until now.

I have a good relationship with my co-workers, men and women, I get along with everybody, say "Hi" to everyone, I'm one of those "fresh" people in the morning, cuz I'm a morning person.

One of those co-workers, is of course a guy, which me and him are soooooooooooooooooooo brother and sister (at least thats what I thought), I've know him since I was a training student, cuz he's older, and we've been working for 3 years, so I've know him a total of 5 years.

We gotten closer through the years (but as brother and sister), I mean we would have our coffee breaks sometimes together, and he feels sooooooooo comfortable with me that he tells me everything, like all his family problems, and how much his mother is sick, and how he's struggling through failed relationships (he doesn't say names or details), of course I talked with him, but I never discussed my private issues, although he's been in the states for almost 12 years and he's very much open-minded, but still, I could never say "everything", and besides, he's just my co-worker.
And through all these years, he never had lust in his eyes (unlike alot of other co-workers), he respected me alot and that what made alot of male co-workers jealous of him, cuz i spent some of my free time with him and my female co-workers.
And for the past year or so, he had started to ask me about my personal life, like for instance: "Don't you wanna get married? Has somebody asked your hand in marriage?" And I would reply laughing: "No not yet" And he would always say stuff like: "Your gorgeous, are MEN BLIND?? Yala it's ok, inshallah Allah yirzegich." (may God send you a man of your own).
I have never had doubts about his questions, cuz they way he asked me and his tone of voice was sooooooooooooo friendly and caring, he never sounded like he was implying anything, cuz I would've known, and it would show.

Then he started adding another question to the rest of the questions, like: "So, no boyfriend?? LOOOOOOOOOL"
And I would laugh too cuz WALLAH I thought he was joking, cuz he would stop after we laugh and he wouldn't comment on it and we start talking about other stuff......till this Saturday......I was sooooo busy doing my paperwork, when he approached me:

Him: "Hiiiiiiiiii, 3a6eenah waiyh" (give us face=why are ignoring me? Or something like that)

Me: "Oh sorry, but as you can see I'm sooooo busy."

Him: "So how's life?"

(I still haven't looked at him cuz I was still busy writing)
Me: "Fine."

Him: "No marriage proposals? No boyfriend? LOOOOOOOOL"

Me: "Hee hee hee, noooooooooo not yet!"

Him: "Looks like we're gonna end up marrying each other."

Me: "LOOOOOOOOOOOOL YEAH!! Probably! Imagine that? LOOOOOOOOOOL, But if so, I'd
be honoured, your a good man." (I have still not looked at him)

Him: "No I'm serious, I like you, and I would
like to take you out 2 a movie and dinner, if you don't mind." (and this particular sentence
was said in English)

Me: "Huh?"

And the pen just fell from my hand, and I looked straight at him, and for the first time, he had that look, that "I'm crazy about you" look. I was speechless, and he told me that he had feelings for me since forever, but he didn't have the guts to tell me cuz he thinks that he isn't my type!!!
Well kinda yeah, cuz he's a co-worker?? HELLO?? I don't mix business with pleasure, although there are cuties, but NO!!! And ALWAYS the one's who got the guts and approach me are either married, or not my type SHEESH!!
And this guy, is like a brother to me, so sorry I can't. So I just stood there with my jaws glued to the floor, and he left me saying: " I'll give you time 2 think about it."
And since that day, my "Hello's" turned to just nodding and raising the eyebrows. I can't talk to him anymore like I used to, he was the only one I felt comfortable with, now he's one of those guys, he's probably now picturing me naked or something.

But the question is, why did he ask me out? From where did he get the impression that I simply can go out in public?? And why did he ask me out when we have just finished talking about marriage? Doesn't he know that if he wants me to take him seriously that he should ask to talk to my father? Does he have to take me out to ask me this?? Or he wants something else?? I'm not stupid to date a guy from work. Or just becuz I laugh and speak good English, I can easily go out? Cuz I know alot have had that impression about me, even female co-workers tell me that it's not good in Kuwait to be too smiley!!! WTF??!! Whatever!!

Anyhoo, I haven't replied to him, but if he asks again, I'm gonna say: "Sorry, ur like a brother to me."



Sorry for the long post guys....
Take care....

GOD I LOVE THE SONG عيناك "Your Eyes" by Khaled Al.Shaik....I used to listen to it alot when I first discovered it in 1999, and I've been listening to it again for the past month....it's so sexy and romantic.... "SIGH" I get so teary especially during the oud part.

I bet Bo Ghazi knows this one!!