An Apology for Crash

Dear Crash

I have read your latest comments or should I say replies on my last post, and I would like to say that I appreciated your apology very much, appreciated that you went back and forth to my blog just to apologize for the SECOND time, that took guts, and showed how such a good person you are, and when I read it, I said: "WOW!! What a true lady, I must do something in return."

So I have decided to apologize to you as well, infront of all the bloggers, I wanted to say I am also truly sorry for saying those harsh things too, I got really shocked and mad cuz I thought this wasn't the time for harsh words, no matter how a person reacts or expresses his/her feelings, so I replied back rudely also. So once again I am sorry for saying what I said.

Crash, believe me, I am not here to make enemies, I'm here to say what I wanna say, get to know people and make friends, and what you see in this blog is not exactly what you get, this is just a drop from the ocean of who I am, cuz I know that a lot of bloggers out there think that flashy colors, calm colors, pictures, fancy words, fancy fonts, present what a person is. As you can see, my blog is simple and pinky, I am simple and love the color pink, but I am also a WOMAN bursting with energy and filled with all kinds of emotions, that loves all the colors, and in fact, for a while I have started to wear black most of the time, I don't know why, but I'm still the same person, so a lot of things in me that the bloggers don't see, that don’t know anything about my life…..

One of the bloggers once told me that he thinks I'm an "airhead", LOOOOL KAIFAH!
He told me that I should present myself through my blog in a better way, WALLAH 3AD KAIFEE…I told him just because I don't write fancy shmancy stuff, doesn't mean that I'm an airhead, I told him that: "You don't even know what I do in my real life or what I do for a living, thank God I'm well educated and don't need your opinion, the "real" people from the "real" world know me well."
I just simply don't have that much time to just sit and blog everyday, or think hard about the next "perfect" post, I just type what I wanna say in the heat of the moment.

Also, turning the CAPS LOCK ON or OFF doesn't mean that I'm screaming, cuz it's all in my head, and I have this blog to express myself with.

As I mentioned before, I'm a strong lady, cuz you won't believe the share of problems I've had in my life, and who hasn't?
But I've stood still…..
I developed a nasty cold (probably cuz I was so sad), even that day when I was crying, I was sneezing, coughing and my body ached all the time, and becuz I was crying silently, by night I got a severe headache cuz I was bottling it all in. I was so sad that I couldn't sleep, my dad told me: "Basech Puppy, go to sleep Baba, you're tired, basech bachy."
I stayed up till 4 am and woke up 10 am with my eyes all puffed up from crying. The only two times I cried loudly and let it all out was when I went to bed that night in my room and cried myself to sleep, and the next day in my car when I went to the coop to buy stuff, I cried listening to the radio of that sad music they put between the interviews while putting his pictures, and cried when I returned home. And the day before on Saturday, we had a MAJOR family crisis, but thank God it got solved by the end of the day. But sub7an Allah, since Friday, before all that, I had this feeling like a big stone was on my chest, nothing made me laugh, and felt MAKHNOOGAH….weird, then I knew why….it was such a bad week.

So sorry once again, and your welcomed to visit my blog anytime.

Take care…

P.S.
Sorry for causing confusions.
And sorry for the long post.

RIP Ameer Jaber